Friday, December 12, 2014

Leaning Into Discomfort or One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest

I had just finished writing a post on the different vices one can use in order to numb out and not feel our feelings.  

Brene's suggestion is to "lean into the discomfort" and to "know I will be okay. 

I felt dissatisfied with my post.

I decided to leave it for a bit.....I told my hubby -I feel the post is too preachy and text book.

My next decision was to make a coffee.  I asked my husband if he would like one.
He joked with me about coffee adding to his high blood pressure.
We both opted to indulge.

What I unknowing did not realize was I was using the coffee to numb out my feelings of dissatisfaction. 

See how easy it is to miss?  And here I had just spent an hour writing about the use of an unhealthy habit to numb our feelings.

Anyway at that minute the whole message flew right over my head.

So what would be the reason coffee would be deemed unhealthy?  For me the acidity level sometimes bothers my stomach.


In my writer's fog I only put in half the amount of water (of course I would....my husband put it out there when he joked about it raising his heart rate.  .....and what would guarantee an increase in heart rate?......a extra strong cup of coffee?)

I realized my mistake after I poured a cup of coffee.  This thick black substance would guarantee havoc for both of us.   I now needed to return the coffee back into the pot and add the additional water to ensure the proper strength.

I then discover the coffee pot lid is stuck solid!!  Of course it is....Universe is trying to tell me/us something. 

I really don't care.....I try all sorts of different methods to get the lid off...none work so finally I ask hubby for assistance.  Starts off quite congenial .....until the lid remains stubbornly stuck and then comes apart!  (Universe trying to give hubby a message?)

Thought this would be a good moment to share my new wisdom..."lean into the discomfort, dear".

I was hoping to avoid raised blood pressure.

Flew right over his head.....pliers and the F word dislodged the lid.

As I am typing this out....I just realized he did lean into the discomfort.
His blood pressure did go up (Universe answered anyways)

Ahh...the Gifts Of Imperfection

Now I feel satisfied with this writing.  (scrapped the other posting)

You know I really don't like the phrase "Lean Into Your Discomfort".  There is nothing compelling about it.
I found this picture...I rather like it's message better. 

Lean Into Discomfort

                                                                         photo credit: peakofmind.com
What do you think?

While we are on the subject of leaning into growth.  The artwork project was to create a collage of "Wisdom Comforts".  Now I really like that term. 

For those of you reading this for the first time and wondering what exactly this is about.   I took the Brene' Brown's online course that Oprah offered, and decided to blog my journey.